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I
09:01
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Thoughts just keep repeating inside this poisoned mind
Thoughts of never healing from the wounds of time
Pain my only pleasure my only truth from the lies of hope
Pain all I remember all that I've felt was dead inside
Time spent talking led to nothing I'm still hurting blood keeps spilling
No more longing to feel something I'll be taking revenge on you
Look at what you've done at what you've caused I must end your life
Look how far it's gone all that you've done I will make my point
Feel the part of me which was killed because of you
Feel how you stole all that I loved my only joy in life
Know the pain you caused the strife you made is what led to this
Know I will not stop I will not sleep until I see your death
Cloth is tied around your fucking mouth so no one hears you scream
Slice into your gut I stab the organs and watch the blood spill from your eyes
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2. |
II
11:45
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Cold still lifeless
Wasted time pointless
Feelings drained on hatred
Culture destruction of higher consciousness
Living amongst you destroyed me
Selfish incompetent excuse for a human being
I will make you pray for another day
Godless I will take your life away
Torment inflicted just as I had planned
Watching the blood flow as I slice into your neck
Your blood trickling down
This blade carving your flesh
Stabbing to numb my hate
Fuck you - this is how it ends
Your death will be my revenge
I will release all I have
First I stab inside your chest
Once I start you'll regret what you've done
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3. |
III
08:39
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At times when I reflect upon this life my thoughts are consumed by the hunger of despair
Enshrouded by the echoes of a silent whisper
This shadow reminds me I stand alone
Now I face my visions of fear
Slowly collapsing into the bleakest abyss
Timeless unconscious void of any light
Darkness eternal this place is now my home
Glimpses of true existence shatter the fantasy of this illusion
Never have I imagined a place so desolate beyond creation
Pulses instill a wonder to facilitate an understanding
Helpless I must surrender to the torrential force of this egoic death
What have I done to end up here
How could you betray me I gave my life
Shaken - what are these visions? What can be gained from this? How is this happening?
Releasing the inner struggle of ego consciousness
I enter realms surpassing divinity
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4. |
IV
09:27
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All this time wasted on nothing
So much pain feelings expressed through violence
Using all day trying to reach a silence
Nothing is working focus shifting to suicide
Standing there with blade in hand, staring at a cold dead reflection in the mirror, questioning if life is reality, there's no purpose if existence is this, but who am I to feel anything, I'm not you I'm a shadow of the light, there's a darkness inside of me taking hold as I lose my mind
Pain death end life
Time spent wishing to die
Each day too long
When will this stop
Hatred is all I have for you
Hatred is all I have towards myself
What is happening, I am falling, I am drifting towards myself
This mental state has me crawling, wishing it would end
It's just part of me, no denying complexities found within
I embrace the fact I am nothing I am ready to leave this dream
Sight now fades
Hope is dead
I tried for you all
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5. |
V
09:39
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Lost beyond the realm of time
I feel the shadow surfacing, plaguing my mind
Reaching for a way out of this
There is no turning back now, prepare to witness your own
Death is the only freedom, from this vile world
Ego still resisting, denying the soul
Facing inner darkness, cold truth is shown
Buried inside - a tomb of what used to be
Ashes fall from the burning sky, hallucinations magnify
This substance will decalcify, and raise the inner realms
Visions cast from deep inside, glimpses of the other side
Activating the third eye, outer body dies
Suddenly, a panic consumes me, the ego is struggling to let go
Voices surround me, the vision's fragmenting, the ego is fighting for control, but it will lose
This battle in my mind, insanity, calling me, reaching from beyond, the place where darkness grows, it festers and grows, and crawls into my soul, soon I will perish into the abyss
Of the shadow, I have become, one with my death, and I have seen, where I will go, where I have come from, what I have been, and what I'll always be
A fragment of the void, forgotten by the human mind,
A place so cold and dark, beyond the source of cosmic light
Entire galaxies condensed into a point
Amidst a sea of blackness
Emerge the sparks of
Life is the only freedom, from this empty space
Ego creating awareness, limiting the consciousness
Facing inner darkness, cold truth is shown
Buried inside - the truth of what really is
Tryptamines erase the part of me which thought it had control, destroy this mind, this body, all I used to be was an illusion attached to social conditioning, but that is gone and what remains is nothingness, the realm of everything the depths within the soul I will remain here for all of eternity
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VI
15:56
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I used to dream
Now my thoughts have ceased
I used to feel
Now there's nothing left
Where did I go wrong
What led me to this
When will it let go
Of the grasp it holds on me
I used to talk
Now I'm withdrawn
I used to care
Now it's all so meaningless
Once I had a life
In it I could find joy
Slowly, color faded away
I wake up but everyday the same
Searching for a path out of darkness, a way to balance life
Longing to feel other than useless, and wishing I would die
Knowing human life serves no purpose, why face another day
Giving in to thoughts of destruction, I can't escape the pain
Cutting to feel something, to feel free, free from the hatred towards humanity
I hate you all, I hate you all, you shall witness the plans I have made
You'll be screaming, and you'll be begging, but I will not spare your life
Without compassion, I shall become, a force of chaos, bringer of your death
Finding peace among the silence, extinguish human life
No more pointless conversations, no more wasted time
Cast beyond the depths of creation, my purpose now fulfilled
End this worthless human condition, in death I now dwell
Tired of never knowing, of always wanting, experiences outside my mind
Outside this hell, outside these walls, I have become a prisoner within,
I'm trapped inside, so trapped inside, my one escape is the drug I am
So lost inside, without direction, I wander deep with black abyss
Once I had a life
In it I could find joy
Slowly, color faded away
I wake up but everyday the same
I used to dream
Now my thoughts have ceased
I used to feel
Now there's nothing left
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7. |
VII
09:10
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I'm facing the shadow
Embracing the undesired truths
Reliving each struggle
since the dawn of consciousness
I try to recover
This deed can't be undone
The darkness takes over
I sink into the forgotten past
Here I witness the fall, of the soul into matter
Transformation in hopes to explain, what it means to exist
A knowledge we cannot attain, with this limited psyche
Acceptance that what we've become is a failed experiment
Fissures burst, chance of life, formless soul, awakened mind
Wanting sight to surmise what is seen is all to life
Lights fluctuate in size formulating the realm inside
Mind tries to compromise illusions created to simplify
Glowing rock expanding space eon's of a lifeless state
Gas ignites life awaits planets form taking shape
This cosmic reflection just won't suffice
Still is the force that blows the winds of creation
Terror manifest eternity in emptiness
Trauma existing hiding withing the soul
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The results of modern society, in audible form.
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